Do you know what it feels like to wake up in a panic ? just because you woke up again ?
Can you imagine looking at a train rolling in to the subway station, looking at it as freedom not for being able to deliver you to your destination but from your sadness.. the destination is not important as long as you can be free of this pain you feel. what kind of pain must one be in to have the balls to jump in front of a train, death
may not be instant or certain but that pain and suffering pails in comparison to the pain in ones chest who is
contemplating taking this exit… that # 3 looks more and more like a god send. There are many other painless
ways to check out it is a testament to real pain to chose this means. Gershy was not Crazy! Gersh was in pain a
pain we can only pray we never experience. Imagine watching the train come at and pray to G-D for the strength
to take the final leap.
It hurt so bad to wear the fake smile but you do it anyway so people stop saying things like "smile" ! or "whats wrong with you, you always look so sad"
Do you know how lost and alone you feel when you look in the mirror and don't know the empty face that's looking back at you ?
Have you ever stopped looking in the mirror because the reflection you saw was so filled with loneliness and sadness even you couldn't bare it ?
Do we acknowledge it??
Has Anyone ever taken the time to talk about any of those who checked out to figure out why they see suicide as an only exit?? Imagine all the things you would do if you knew you were dying in a week... yet I'm convinced that those that have checked out have not lived as if they were about to die. had they, surely they would have discovered a whole new world of possibilities free of all notions and pressures we place upon ourselves based on what we perceive as community or society standards, our surroundings usually impose the belief that we must fall into a certain box, if you make this much, have this car, are or are not married by x age, where you live, how much hair you have, how fat or skinny you are, are all factors in the social standings equator that we use to determine whether we are a success or a total loser, When in the grand scheme of things most of our barometers are all flawed kind of like a girl becoming anorexic because she wants to look like that heroin addict model she sees in the fashion ad, we are all anorexic little girls trying to be like Kate.
We ourselves set the bar for what is normal and whats not, its all just a head game.... I am convinced had any of these people explored any of those possibilities and not been so desperate to escape the notion of death as an escape would have made as much sense as letting a monkey fly a plane.
We set the bar, lose the Bar and we are free!
A free society is one where it is safe to be unpopular.
Don't trust reality. After all, it's only a collective hunch.
Even at a Mensa convention someone is the dumbest person in the room.
There are kids growing up in CH who had a mother or father who checked out did they got counseling or are they keeping all that shit in as the community looks upon them as the usual nebach their father / mother was a nut....
Gershy Gorodetsky was a great guy,Has Anyone ever taken the time to talk about any of those who checked out to figure out why they see suicide as an only exit?? Imagine all the things you would do if you knew you were dying in a week... yet I'm convinced that those that have checked out have not lived as if they were about to die. had they, surely they would have discovered a whole new world of possibilities free of all notions and pressures we place upon ourselves based on what we perceive as community or society standards, our surroundings usually impose the belief that we must fall into a certain box, if you make this much, have this car, are or are not married by x age, where you live, how much hair you have, how fat or skinny you are, are all factors in the social standings equator that we use to determine whether we are a success or a total loser, When in the grand scheme of things most of our barometers are all flawed kind of like a girl becoming anorexic because she wants to look like that heroin addict model she sees in the fashion ad, we are all anorexic little girls trying to be like Kate.
We ourselves set the bar for what is normal and whats not, its all just a head game.... I am convinced had any of these people explored any of those possibilities and not been so desperate to escape the notion of death as an escape would have made as much sense as letting a monkey fly a plane.
We set the bar, lose the Bar and we are free!
A free society is one where it is safe to be unpopular.
Don't trust reality. After all, it's only a collective hunch.
Even at a Mensa convention someone is the dumbest person in the room.
There are kids growing up in CH who had a mother or father who checked out did they got counseling or are they keeping all that shit in as the community looks upon them as the usual nebach their father / mother was a nut....
(TBC)
4 comments:
Oy its a community wide problem.
The Crown Heights Community needs to come together and change.
If they are not willing to go to drastic measures for these people who are taking the leap, we will only continue too loose more of our future generation.
Yosher Koach Lamedvuvnik and Malach Michoel ! any thought's on how to make these people make the needed changes ? a starting point ? a event ? anything ?
they r trying so fucking hard to push this one under the rug 2.
What is it to you people ? why cant you leave this alone ? do you enjoy this ?
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